Commit to Memory
You don’t know how you feel.
You believe what you say, but it’s not real.
It is sad, the idealistic daydream we believed would come.
A slightly closer look, a little more information.
Help me understand.
I need to understand.
My tools are here, but don’t be afraid.
The pain will only make you stronger.
It will only help you see.
Don’t be scared; just listen to me.
I don’t understand.
Can you hear me? Are you listening?
What more can I do?
Look at what you do to yourself.
You will never change.
You never change.
Your life will be empty.
It is empty now.
What do you do? You do nothing.
You are nothing.
This is how you must do it.
This is what makes sense.
You make no sense.
You have no logic, what do you think about?
Are you listening to me?
You are always with that blank stare.
I don’t respect you.
Why don’t you stand up for yourself?
How is this ok? Why do you put up with this?
How is this ok?
You don’t ask questions, you don’t care.
Don’t you see how much I care?
Don’t you see how much I try?
Don’t you see that this is what love really is?
This is love.
There are many layers, but you do not wish to explore.
What is wrong with you?
I don’t get it.
I must figure it out; there must be a solution.
We can fix you.
I can make you better.
This way is better.
This is how you should be.
You are not this way.
Don’t you want to be this way?
This is the way you should be.
This is the way successful people are.
This is the way you should be.
Why are you doing that again?
You always do that.
You never listen.
Why?
How could you do that again?
We have talked about this before.
You are doing it again.
I can’t believe I put so much energy into to you.
You are a liar.
You don’t want to change.
Look where we are, again.
Back again.
Here we are.
Why are you crying?
It means nothing, you cry all the time.
You are so weak.
You are like a child.
A child.
Your friends are not critical.
You surround yourself with people who are not critical.
They don’t know what they are talking about.
Don’t listen to them.
Listen to me.
I am giving you the tools.
I am helping you.
Why don’t you use these tools?
Your way does not work.
It never works.
Stop doing it that way.
It doesn’t work.
You are broken.
You are delusional.
You need me.
You need me to tell you what to do.
You need me to keep you on track.
You need me.
This is how the world works.
It is not magic.
This is what’s real.
This is real.
What you see is not real.
I am real.
My thoughts are real.
I think.
What you feel, and how you react, it doesn’t mean anything.
It’s just an emotional response.
It doesn’t mean anything.
Don’t you see that?
Hello?
Don’t you see?
It’s right here for you to see.
Look!
Look at me!
What do you think?
This is what you think.
I’ll tell you what you think.
I’ll tell you what you are feeling.
Don’t worry, I will tell you how you feel.
You don’t know how you feel.
You believe what you say, but it’s not real.
11.7.2007
